Sumar, Alfian & Fadhli
Firdaus!
Favourites; 7/11 & girlfriends.Trained over to Woodlands and meet Edzuan up. How sweet can he be? He passed me an "envelope" with a ribbon tied and in it is the pictures taken during my birthday. Yes, all 96 photos, he printed them out and passed it to me. Trained together with him. He alighted at Bradell whereas I continue till City Hall. I reach Outback way too early. Had chats with Mr Man and Safari and idiot him. He said that my birthday bash is still not over as Afiq and himself, has not lay their hands on me. Meaning, this Friday, another bash from the two of them since that day, we were all busy with closing.
Work was alright. Since there were no customers seated at my section, Mr Man gave me a list of names and contacts. Called them up and check their address regarding their VIP Card collection. It all ended at about 8:30pm and then I was on floor throughout. 10pm, start doing BOH. And punched out at 10:30pm.
`Kboy fetched me up and how sweet can he be, he gave me a box of Ferraro Rochea for my so called birthday present though it's already over. But still, like I said, the thought that counts. Chilling purpose and he sent me off. Thanks for the night `Kboy. Reached home at 12:30am and now here I am blogging halfway while chatting with NEQ.
& later on, will be heading to work at 6pm till closing again. I miss going town with Motley people and I was planning to have a dinner cum camwhoring session with the JS mates together with the Motley boys tagging along. End of the month, hopefully aye?
"when once you were a total stranger, who means nothing but just another living,
but now etched on my heart, is your name and to love you is a must, a splendid
moment it was. the first kiss, i remember, sweetness lingers. romance in the
air, perfect setting, perfect place. the witness to our vows between you and me."; 25 Nov 08.
I've decided and think through it yesterday night before I went to my dreamland. Sometimes I wonder, is it so hard for me to move on, after you've step into my life and left footprints on my heart. As days goes by, I love you even more deeply despite whatever had happened throughout our 17months knowing each other. I don't even know whether or not, we're an item way back then but I must admit that the moments we spent together, I really treasured it. I do asked myself whenever you hurt me. Why is it that I am not angry when you hurt me way deeply? Why is it that I forgive you for whatever mistakes you've done? And why am I pretending to be normal when I am not? This questions never fails to ask me whenever I'm down. I'm trying hard not to be emotional now. But seriously, I cried the night on my birthday. You blamed me for not being understanding and the word 'fuck' just hit me very deep when you said it during our convo at MSN. I used to know you as a nice guy who won't be using vulgarities towards girls. But I was wrong. You show me your care and concern but what does that all means? Or prolly maybe I was expecting more when you're not. I don't know. I'm tired of waiting already. I'm sorry but I rather let you go. Forever in my life. I thank you for making my day, and everything. But it hurts me so deeply to leave you tonight. I don't know how long will it take but I couldn't stand it anymore. And I'm sick and tired to go through this shit again. 15th February was indeed a very memorable day. Thanks alot. It's not that I'm not being understanding but it just doesn't make sense. Enough of all this. I'm done with my say. Take care, Dearest. (This will the last time I'm calling you 'Dearest') :'(
Fucking shit! I hate this feeling! It sucks a lot.
