I am tired to go through it all over again. What I need is just your love, care and trust. Is that so much I am asking from you and is that so hard for you to give me? I know you're trying but it seems that there's a string pulling you back to your past and affects me to end up getting hurt even more. Why must it always happen when the flower was about to bloom in the garden and I am again or always the one ended as the loser?
"Don't play with the fire if you don't want to get burnt." -Shafiq
Indeed I find this phrase true when he said to me yesterday while we were in the bus on the way back home and him trying his best to figure out why I cried suddenly in the train without knowing why. So now what? Should I put all this to an end and let that dear one lead his happiness with the previous one? How? The feeling will be different and I know that. I'm enduring and he's trying. But how long? Sighs. This just won't make me feel any better sometimes.
Enough of all those I've mentioned earlier on. Right now, I need to really save my money and spent things wisely. I got so much things in mind to grab during last month's pay but I can't remember much where those money had gone to? Yes, I spent my money like water, without even thinking twice. There's so much things I need but I have to wait till my January's pay at the end of the month, which is like a freaking fucking two more weeks! God damn it!
School was alright earlier ago. And for goodness sake, I thought lesson starts at 9am today and I was already in school at 9:20am when actually lesson starts at 10am. And Mr Neo was on MC due to his toothache he had the day before. Sky took us for relief, he gave out lanyard and thermometer to each of us and we slacked throughout till 12pm. Later at 12pm-1pm, there was an ITalent Roadshow at the canteen before CSO lesson at 1pm. 3pm, had to stay for WRB Lesson and we finished up with our report writing assignment. I didn't joined them to slack since it was raining and I was so tired and sleepy. 963ed back home and Adi texted me to meet up at Civics for awhile. Meet him up at Civics with his brother, Faiz, and afterwhich later at 6:30pm, bidded goodbye. 913ed home alone.
School's at 10am-3pm later and work's 6pm till closing. Friday is 15th January 2010 and it marks my babygirl's 18th Birthday. (: In case I didn't get the chance to wish you, I'll do it here. Love you babygirl! Let's hang around soon, till then Readers. I need to rush now and complete my report writing worth a 1000 words. Toodles!
